The Sun Will Rise and So Will We

by Jennae Cecelia

There is uncertainty lingering in the air. But I have hope. I have strength. Those are two things I can control. I will get past all of this unknown.

I am learning through this all how to stand tall, but forgiving myself when I shrink a little from the heavy weight on my shoulders.

It is as if I want my worst fears to come true so I can say, “See I told you that would happen. I told you that could happen.” It is something I want so badly to be wrong about, but also want to be right about to prove that I wasn't wrong in thinking that way.

I want to be the golden hour girl.

Sometimes you have to love people from a distance.

You have the right to not pick up the phone and listen.

I am the journal filled with words you will never hear come out of my mouth

The goodbyes weren’t said. The I’ll miss you hugs weren’t given. Because things stopped without my permission.

It is a new beginning. Not an end.

No foundation will hold unless I pour into me too.

Grieving from afar of all the things we didn’t know could be taken away. Memories lost. Photos that won’t be captured. Moments in time we can’t replace.

One day came and one day went.

It is time to move somewhere you can fully bloom as yourself.

I have no choice but to grow.

I bloom for myself now.

the world woke and saw that connection was all they wanted.

I took a wrong turn. Hit a dead end.

At least I am still driving

Never stop asking those big questions or moving with an adventurous heart.

Don’t change the script to please someone else.

It is beautiful and tragic

Don’t forget the roads you have crossed. The accomplishments checked off your bucket list. Maybe right now you feel in a stand still, but don’t forget all of your progress.

You won’t always be carrying such a heavy load.

All the places you want to go are waiting for you with welcome signs. You just have to drive.

They might not understand the path you chose, but remind them that those steps are yours to take.

Send me a sign. A feather in the wind. You are here. I can feel it.

The earth is shaking and you don’t know how you are going to hold up for much longer. But your walls are stronger than you think. You are stronger than you think. You might have to take it easy for a while, but this won’t crush you. You have faced this feeling before and come out with more.

Conversation and community are what you would rather be gifted. Reconnecting relationships that have drifted.

We are learning through this all that every person holds value no matter how small.

Why are you so afraid to be seen?

Do we ever truly meet the future?

But isn’t it worth it to uncover all of the growth you didn’t see because you let your life pile up with unwanted weeds?

The next step doesn’t have to get you to the finish line right away. It doesn’t even have to get you to the path. You just have to turn your attention to the direction you want to get.