The Sun Will Rise and So Will We

by Jennae Cecelia

I’ll clean that space tomorrow. I’ll wipe it until it shines. Oh, how I wish it was that simple to make my mind feel fine.

It is as if I want my worst fears to come true so I can say, “See I told you that would happen. I told you that could happen.” It is something I want so badly to be wrong about, but also want to be right about to prove that I wasn't wrong in thinking that way.

While you are picking up everyone else’s pieces, don’t forget you have pieces to pick up for yourself too. You can’t pour from a broken glass. Take time for you.

Sometimes you have to love people from a distance. You have the right to create boundaries. You have the right to not pick up the phone and listen.

The past is behind you. If you want new beginnings, then stop looking back. Stop reliving the past. Shift your focus to the future you can have.

It isn’t that their life is better than yours, you just see them when their lights are turned on and windows wide open. Everyone has problems behind closed curtains.

“Don’t forget to be thankful for another day where you wake up with the sun,” they say. But it is okay not to be okay. Lay low and take it slow. Having a bad day doesn’t make you ungrateful.

Anxiety has a way of robbing me from living in the present. I worry about what the future holds. Children? Illnesses? Debt? I dwell on things I did in the past. Waving hi to the wrong person. Saying, "you too" to the waitress who definitely wasn't about to enjoy her meal. Anxiety has a way of making me feel like I am moving forwards and backwards but neither one lasts.

My legs haven’t seen the sun in at least five years. My legs haven’t jumped into a pool or a lake since I discovered that I am supposed to critique my body and fill it with words of hate.

Don’t forget the roads you have crossed. The accomplishments checked off your bucket list. Maybe right now you feel in a stand still, but don’t forget all of your progress.

All the places you want to go are waiting for you with welcome signs. You just have to drive. You just have to stop saying this isn’t the right time.

Today could be the day you look back at in five, ten, twenty years and say, “The decision I made that day is what got me here today.”

My mind makes me feel like loneliness only lives in me. That everyone else is free. But in reality, we are all a little alone. We just feel like we are the only ones that have loneliness invade our homes.

I am strong but I am soft too. I can hold my own, but oh, how I melt into you. Not because I have to. I want to.

Maybe you want to fit in. Lost amongst the crowd. Not standing out. Blending in. Camouflaged, but not totally hidden. Why are you so afraid to be seen? You never know who in this world might take your story, or your smile, or your advice and feel seen too. Everyone has something someone else needs.

They aren’t the author of your book, the painter of your canvas, or the speaker at your talk. So why are you letting other people choose if you do those things or not?

Let me ask you this as you say you want a better life, a new life, a happier life- are you ready for things to get harder before they get better? Are you willing to dive deep within yourself and change your negative thoughts about yourself and the world? You can’t flood yourself with negativity and question why nothing positive is flowing to you.

Right now you may feel like you have been forced out of your comfort zone. Maybe that is a good thing. Have you been craving growth? Have you been wanting to reach new marks in life? No big changes happen when you are comfortable. Maybe this is the Universe’s way of telling you this is your time.