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“I’m sorry them monsters did this to you. They took Eli, but don't worry.” Her palm flattens on my cheek, determination shining in her sparkling blue eyes. “I won’t allow them to take you, too.”
I sit here, wondering when exactly it was she became such an integral part of my life and the fucking air I breathe.
Being away from her for an entire day is messing with my senses. I’m on a fucking withdrawal and it’s irritating and pissing me off. I can only return to normal when Elsa’s beside me where she belongs.
Why the hell does he have eyes the colour of the clouds before the rain? Now he’ll barge into my mind whenever it rains.
My monster is all tall, powerful, and beautiful. My monster is Aiden King.
There will be a day when I’ll see Aiden and walk right past him without sparing him a glance. I hope so. I really hope so.
“I don’t give promises I don’t keep. You’re the one who does that over and over again. I told you loving me is a one-way road. I told you not to say the fucking words if you didn’t mean them.” I throw a glance at him over my shoulder. “I meant those words. I love you, Aiden, but I also love myself enough to walk away from you.”
Time is weird that way. Time is endless and short all at once.
Dad says to always stay calm. Emotions can be my downfall. Just like my mum. He says she feels too much, and that’s why she cries a lot. I think she cries a lot because he doesn’t feel enough.
“Promise you’ll marry me.” She holds out her pinkie. I curl mine around hers. “I promise.”
She’s all mine with a capital M. And now, she’s back. This time, only death would do us part.
Whenever Aiden doesn’t get his way, he resorts to establishing his dominance. It’s part of the push and pull game he plays so well.
“You’ll be wet,” he rumbles near my ear, the sound shooting straight to my core. “You’ll be soaking my dick when I fuck the defiance out of you.”
I want him to see my expression. No idea what it looks like right now, but I hope it’s filled with anger and hate. I hope he sees he did this to us. He broke us. Broke me. He told me he chose me, but he never did. Not really.
I mean it. If he shows me his worst, I’ll be able to hate him once and for all. I’ll stop dreaming about him and his touch and his damn freaking scent.
“Until you forgive me, I won’t fuck you.” “Which means never.” “Believe me, sweetheart. When you know the truth, you’ll beg for it.”
Alicia used to say that in order to be accepted, you have to bare yourself. I never understood what that meant. Until Elsa.
“I’m walking the hell away from you, Aiden. You’re cancer who’ll keep eating me from the inside out until there’s nothing left. I’m done being your pawn. I’m done being played. I’m choosing me this time. Not you. Me!”
You know, people say you don’t feel it when your heart breaks. I did. I heard the cracking sound and felt it tear apart. Nothing will make me forget that.
He’s a drug, Aiden. I’m just a loser on withdrawal.
Hmm. I like it when you’re stubborn, sweetheart. It makes me rock hard thinking about how to fuck that defiance out of you.
I’m thrown back to the times Aiden wrapped his hand around my throat and pounded into me like a mad man in need of his sanity. Like he can’t get deep enough or fuck me hard enough.
I want to fuck you so hard in all positions possible and remind you who you belong to. I’ll tongue-fuck you and finger-fuck you and come down your throat. Then I’ll claim that virgin arse for good measure. You’ll be all fucking mine. Every. Last. Inch. Of. You. Oh, and you’ll scream it for the world to hear. Then I’ll bathe you and loosen your muscles just so I can worship your body all over again. When you finally fall asleep it’ll be in my arms with your legs tucked between mine. As you rest, I’ll watch your adorable sleeping face until morning.
There’s no getting rid of Aiden. He’ll always be there. A constant. A nuisance. A thrill. He’s under my skin, flowing in my bloodstream.
Or maybe it’s because I miss him. I’m like a beggar, pleading for crumbs and glimpses of him to satiate the thirst and craving inside of me.
My heart skips a beat. He hates it. Oh, my God. He hates that I don’t remember him from back then. It must be why he’s been such a dick all this time, calling me Frozen and heartless.
Can I blame him, though? I would’ve been so heartbroken if he forgot about me.
I can handle the intense, dirty side of Aiden — sometimes — but I’m completely helpless in front of his soft side.
“Do you ever stop talking dirty?” “Only when I fuck you dirty.”
I narrow my eyes. “You mean to tell me that you came without a plan?” “I did have a plan.” He tilts his head in my direction. “Anything that involves having you by my side is the perfect plan.”
I’m barely holding on as it is. If Aiden breaks my trust one more time, I won’t survive. One thing’s for sure, I’ll destroy him with me. It’s only fair with how much he destroyed me.
I know trauma. I lived trauma. It invades your personal space, claws at your walls, climbs them, destroys them, and then dances on the remains.
“There hasn’t been a day where I haven’t thought about you. Every time I manage to sleep, I dream of you. You were my obsession since we were kids, but now it’s way fucking worse. I don’t know how I managed to spend eight years without you in my life when now I suffocate if I don’t see you for hours.”
“Choose me, Elsa. Choose us.”
“My intentions towards your daughter are simple,” I say with the calmest, most determined voice I can manage. “She’s mine.”
I love creeping under her skin. I love being the only one who gets to break the ice and slip inside her castle. She might close the door, she might build forts, but I’ll always conquer.
Am I too far gone for this girl? Yes, probably.
“She’s mine, Jonathan. Mine.” I throw the hair towel away and walk to stand toe to toe with him. “Once you accept that fact, I’ll accept to be your heir. Until then, you’re my enemy.”
It makes me proud, that groan. It makes me proud to bring him pleasure and have this effect on him.
Aiden isn’t only a monster, but he’s also a thief — the kind who never gets caught.
“I need you, sweetheart. I fucking need to be inside you like I need air.”
He stole my ability to breathe, talk, or even think. He stole my fucking heart and soul, and there’s no way I’ll be able to get them back.
Being with Aiden is like going through a roller coaster ride in a dark tunnel.
I revel in the way he can’t control himself when he’s with me.
He worships my mouth with his tongue and my pussy with his cock. I can feel myself clenching all around his length, almost strangling him, suffocating him. He continues his onslaught for a few more seconds before he growls, “Mine.”
He’s fisting his cock in that rough, masculine way and jerking up and down like he’s angry. Like his body yearns for mine the way mine does. Like his soul needs mine to be whole.
Bottom line is, I need to go back and fuck the three of them up for even thinking I’d leave Elsa. That will only happen after death. Even then, I might make a deal with the devil so I can haunt her from afar.
Le paradis est juste ici.”
“You know what’s the difference between you and me, Elsa?” His voice is rough, commanding, and hard. “I’m all in, but you always have a foot out. Even when we’re together, that brain of yours is always thinking of an escape plan.”
“Are we playing that game? Because I had a stronger reason to hate you.”
