I quickly figured out my route to Rebecca’s house, which seemed to be on the wrong side of the tracks, as they say—that barely registered as odd at the time—and then I folded up the map and put it in my coat pocket. I still have that map. It’s at home, pinned up on the back of my closet door. Faded and stiff now, I carried it around for years and I’ve cried over it many times. It’s the map of my childhood, my sadness, my Eden, my hell and home. When I look at it now, my heart swells with gratitude, then shrinks with disgust.
