It sits deep within Dad, this guilt and sorrow over abandoning his father, my grandfather. I realize that this scenario is only repeating itself. All the times Dad has called and texted me, wondering when I’ll return home to him. All the times he’s said he misses me and wants me to come home and be beside him. What Dad is doing is sowing the same guilt in my chest as his own dad planted in him. It’s sprouting inside me as well. I can’t live with the idea that I will bear that guilt, that chafing conscience, for the rest of my life. The chain of guilt and dysfunction that has run through our
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