But I still have this desperate desire to be loved, to excel in everything, to win admiration and respect, especially from men.” Money and success had brought her little comfort. “Deep down,” she said, “I’m always running hard because I’m running scared. The children of the poor, the children of the divorced are not the most secure people in the world.” Between takes she would look over to her director, “a wicked grin on his face.” She thought, He’s enjoying this moment far too much. It was because he was short. The young girls, she thought, his sarcasm and needless cruelty, directing movies.
  
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