Your deity rolls back her eyes in every icon and statuary. Look at her from the periphery of your faith so that she can see you in return. Do you love her, or, are you so desperate for recognition you will seek it even when it destroys you? Stand behind your mother when you decide to leave her, and look into the eyes on the back of her head. Tell her where you’re going and break her heart. Look to the stars. Look at how the winners get history and the losers get culture. Close your eyes and ask God for light and look for it.
