Fool Me Twice

by Carrie Aarons

It looked like something one of those reality TV skanks would wear at a jungle-themed party.

VH1 circa 00s

You think you’re prepared for it … the death of someone you love. But you can’t know. You can’t know the kind of dagger, the dull kind inserted slowly into the muscle that the world views as the symbol of love. It rips apart every piece of flesh, every nerve, every vessel, every synapse.

1)

I’d throw a football for a living if you paid me in pizza, which isn’t a bad deal now that I think about it.

Oh, to be young.

I’ve been written about for years as the second coming of Peyton Manning.

Peyton!!!

You never know if you’ll be breathing in the next second after this one. Which is why I take every chance those precious seconds give me.

2)

I had my sights set on a liberal arts college in the middle of New York City.

So you upgraded.

it just so happens our houses stood next to each other, on the dividing lines of two towns.

Oh, that's neat!

Compared to my striped gray comforter and black-and-white photo print I took of the Venice Beach boardwalk when I visited California, her side of the room is bursting with color.

She's not like the other girls!

Wit. I like wit. My dick stirs even more, because if this girl can actually hold her own against my ego, the sex might be that much more incredible.

This is so dumb lmao

Unlike ninety-nine percent of teenage and twenty-something girls, I have always loved my natural hair.

Shut up

This is for Catherine. I will not develop feelings for this man. Sex and connection are separate entities, and Lincoln will never see the true nature of my emotions.

Why would your friend want you to screw her ex who broke her heart? I'd come back to haunt her.

He actually has a personality and can hold a conversation, unlike a lot of guys my age.

Does he really though?

“Men are from Mercury, women are from Venus.” He nods like he’s fucking Yoda.

lol goober

We undress together, pulling on warmer clothes, and then Lincoln arranges our sleeping bags so that they’re both unzipped, one on the floor and the other thrown over us like a comforter.

Where is Jason Voorhees when you need him?!

My entire life, I’ve been an independent woman.

Ma'am you are 18

I choke up, because in those last days with her earthside, she talked so much about wanting to feel alive. She was pissed off that she had to give herself over to death, because there was so much left in her that she wanted to do.

That is so sad.

Ten days does not make up for all the mistrust she created, but we’re on our way to healing.

It's not THAT big of a thing FFS