How did Kristeva index you the way that she has, and is she correct when she says that “it is only after his death, eventually, that the writer of abjection will escape his condition”? Because you certainly are abject, but perhaps you are a writer, at least of your own confession, and here she gives you a nail of hope on which to cling, or to be pinned: “writing, which allows one to recover, is equal to a resurrection.”