Welcome to the Dark Side (The Fallen Men, #2)

by Giana Darling

What I’m also telling you is that the man he shot in the head was the man who put a bullet in your daughter, the same bullet that went through Garro’s own chest before it landed in hers. You want to talk about the damage that bullet could’ve done if it hadn’t lost speed going through that barrel of a man first?”

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“Does it hurt?” I asked. “No but it hurt like a bitch to get ’em.” “A bitch?” “Damn, sorry, kid. Don’t say that, it’s a bad word.” “Then why do you use it?” I frowned.

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“I’m pretty sure you are the absolute coolest man on the planet,” I told him. His eyes danced at me and got all crinkly in the corners. Suddenly, it was harder to breathe. “I’m damn sure that you are the absolute coolest girl on the planet too.” “Cool,” I said, pretending that wasn’t the nicest thing anyone had ever said to me ever. He smiled again.

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Betsy relaxed a little against me and pet my hair. “Sorry,” she mumbled. “I’m protective of this one. They think she’s got Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. She’s been in here a lot and she’s curious, likes to roam.”

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“Daddy, he’s my guardian monster,” I tried to explain. “You can’t take him away to a bad place or else no one will look after me.” “Don’t be a baby, Louise. You have Nanny looking after you. Your mother and I pay her a very fine salary to look after you and Beatrice and teach you French.” “Je deteste le francais!” I screamed. “And I’ll hate you too if you take Zeus away. He saved my life, Daddy!”

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“Please, Daddy,” I whimpered because he was hurting my bad shoulder by holding me like that, and especially because I didn’t want my guardian monster to go away. For the first time in my life, I felt like I had a champion. “You’re hurtin’ her,” Zeus told my daddy from behind me and even though his voice was calm there was something mean in it that made me scared for my daddy.

Dear Mr. Guardian Monster, I hope you feel better now. Daddy told me you went away to a place where bad people go. Does that mean you are in hell? Can I visit you there?

She is so precious I can’t 😭😭

I am still really sick. I had a Christmas play last week and I threw up all over the Baby Jesus. Mrs. Peachtree tried to pick me up, but I threw up on her too. I had to go to the hospital again and I hate the hospital. Nanny told me the doctors told her that there is something really wrong with me. When Mummy came to visit, she cried. Do you think I am going to die? If I do, can I come stay with you in hell? xoxo, Louise Margaret Lafayette

I’m gonna fucking cry

Now, don’t be sad or anythin’, but we can’t write to each other. You don’t get it now but I’m a grown man and it’s fuckin’ feckin’ weird to write a seven-year-old little girl from prison.

I hope you write me back but if not, maybe see you soon. xoxo, Louise Margaret Lafayette P.S. Do you believe in God? I do but I don’t know why he made me sick. I promise, I pray every day.

why is this author trying to break my heart only at 6% in

It’s still a feckin’ stupid idea for me to write to you, but Jesus, how can a guardian monster abandon his girl when she needs him? Here still. Tell Betsy to write me a letter with more detail about the cancer, yeah? Z.

Betcha look pretty even without all that golden hair. You’re too young to get this, maybe, but sometimes a person’s got a soul so pretty it makes ’em glow prettier than anythin’ else.

but sometimes a person’s got a soul so pretty it makes ’em glow prettier than anythin’ else.

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I don’t want you to send me anything like last year. It was too big. I looked it up on the internet and when you work in prison you don’t make really any money so I don’t want you to waste it on me. Maybe you can buy King that dirt bike he wants! And then for my present you can send me a picture of him riding it. I think that would be really cool.

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Don’t care if you’re mad. Betsy told me your feckin’ parents didn’t get you those tickets, so I did. You accept the present graciously, like the little lady-in-trainin’ that you are, and you get Nanny or Betsy to take you to the ballet, yeah?

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Dear Mr. Z, I AM SO EXCITED! I AM GOING TO WRITE THIS WHOLE ENTIRE LETTER LIKE THIS BECAUSE I AM SO HAPPY I COULD SHOUT! YOU GET TO LEAVE HELL ON EARTH!? YOU GET TO SEE YOUR KIDS GROW UP? I AM SO STINKING HAPPY. WHEN WILL YOU COME AND VISIT?! HURRAH HURRAY! Little Loulou

my heart can’t handle this 😭😭😭

Instead, I hammered that final nail in the coffin of her childish dreams with a ruthless bang. I winked at her. Just like I had when she’d come to visit me that first time in the hospital. I fuckin’ winked at her and her acid washed face crumpled into ash, skin pale, features lax. Fuck me but I ruined her with that wink.

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My red-headed co-worker laughed at me condescendingly. “Honey, trust me, you wouldn’t know how to handle a man like that.” I smiled at her with all my teeth as I walked around the bar and slid past her. “Let’s just see, shall we?”

Girl please ✋🙄

“Wasn’t your fault, Lou, and even if it was, gotta say, I’d do it again. If I have to kill every single fuckin’ man on this goddamn planet to be with you, Lou, you better believe that I fuckin’ will and I’ll do it with a fuckin’ smile.”

“Queenie’s gonna freak, she figures out yer sleepin’ with Foxy.” “Not sleepin’ with her yet, brother, and don’t plan on doin’ any sleepin’ when I got her in my bed for a good long fuckin’ time.” He laughed even as he shook his head at me. “Luckiest fuckin’ man I ever knew.”

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“Your girl?” the rat bastard finally sniveled, fear sparking so fuckin’ pretty in his eyes. “She told me she was nothin’ to you!” I grinned, flexed and released my fist as I drew closer to ’im and then reared it back as I said, “She’s every fuckin’ thing to me.”

“Saw you in the parking lot of First Light with velvet fuckin’ bows in your hair lookin’ at me like I was your saviour. Saw you drunk as fuck outside Nova’s girl Lila’s house lookin’ like somethin’ I dreamed up even stinkin’ like you did. Saw you again in this club in hardly anythin’ at all charmin’ near everyone around you with that halo of good you wear in your golden hair… Little girl, I told you, I’ve seen it all. But until you, didn’t know if any of it was worth it.”

“That’s it, little girl. Come for Daddy,” he growled.

oh so we are getting the daddy kink here 👀

“You’ll be my old lady. You’ll stand by my side at club parties, at functions. You’ll sleep in my bed as much as possible until I can get it so you do that every damn night. You’ll meet my kids and suffer through that drama with me ’cause they’re my life and so’re you. You’ll take my cock whenever I want to give it to you and you’ll take my words whenever I need to give ’em to you. And when I’m an asshole, ’cause I’m a man and I got that in me to give, you’ll give me a piece of your mind and then forgive me.”

“Not bein’ an asshole, Loulou, just enjoyin’ the fuck outta you, outta this. Figure I’ll be laughin’ and smilin’ a whole helluva lot more from now on.” “Wow,” I whispered as I hit the wall of his sincerity and had the indignation knocked right out of me. “Sometimes you’re so sweet, I forget you’re a monster.”

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“You still seein’ that motherfucker?” he asked me in a voice that was lower than a rumble and so controlled, I knew I was in trouble. “Erm, technically, I don’t know if we were ever dating in the first place,” I tried to explain. “The logistics of modern dating are kind of complicated.” “You fuckin’ with me, little girl? You playin’ with a grown man for sport to learn a few things ’fore you go back to limp-ass teenage dick?” “Zeus,”

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“Not sure what it is we have, the love of my life doesn’t tell me shit about her health.”

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“Now, I ain’t makin’ you any promises here, little warrior, but if your fine ass is going to heaven—and it fuckin’ well is—I’ll find a way to get there too. If I gotta move into that fuckin’ church and pay penance every goddamn hour, I’ll do it. If I gotta give up boozin’, guns and drug runnin’, I’ll fuckin’ well do it and I’d do it now if it meant I got a place beside my girl behind those pearly gates.”

“I love you, ya know?” He smiled under my questing mouth. “Love you like it’s my religion, little Lou.”

“Shh,” I hushed him and tightened my grip so he’d stop his struggle. “Just here to have a chat, Benny Boy. Father to father. Man to man. See, I got my girl at home with a black fuckin’ eye and she tells me it was you who did it.”

BEAT HIS FUCKING ASS

“You lose your moonbeam hair, your bombshell shape and your sexual appetite, I don’t give a fuck. ’Cause I love your soul better than I love anythin’ else and that includes the fan-fuckin-tastic package it comes in. You got me, Lou?”

“This is my fuckin’ wife you put in the line of fire, my fuckin’ reason for bein’ who near lost her life fuckin’ twice already this year. You think to stop me, I’ll tear you limb from fuckin’ limb, ya hear me? She gets hurt, she fuckin’ dies…That. Is. On. You. Danner.”