Pamela, certain now that she was indeed again pregnant, was stunned and frightened. This was “the breaking point,” she said. At £10 a month, she would have needed a dozen years just to resolve the debt to Fitzwilliam. The amount was unfathomable, so much so that it brought into focus how fundamentally defective her marriage was. “I mean, that was the first realization in my life that I was totally on my own and that the future of my son was dependent entirely on me and my future was dependent on me, that I couldn’t rely ever again on Randolph,” she said.
