In truth, the early dating phase is when I exist in a constant state of hyper-anxiety, wondering what the other person is thinking, and metaphorically prodding at the corners of their brain to test where their boundaries lie. What I’m trying to do, I think, is control the uncontrollable: I’m trying to subject someone to a subconscious interrogation of their motives and beliefs in order to protect myself against the inevitability of their letting me down. And I’m trying to do all this while appearing super-hot and breezy and nonchalant and unavailable-but-just-the-right-level-of-available and
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