innocent person, Violetta, Verdi, Nicolai Gedda, but Mommy was the cat’s pajamas, and I neglected her, the fact that I just can’t live with that, but I do, I do live with it, the fact that my only strategy is never to think about it but it’s the truth, the smell of rain, the fact that what right do I have to think about her all the time, when I neglected her while she was still around, the fact that I don’t deserve to think about her, the fact that I don’t deserve the few memories I have of her, lilies of the valley, neglected, negligence,
