to drink coffee with a ghost

by Amanda Lovelace

without you i’m not quite sure who the fuck i’m supposed to be.

they always told me that they would rescue me from myself & i was foolish enough to believe them.

your comfort is not more important than my journey to healing.

for the first time, i will allow myself to believe that the best can & will happen to me, instead of the worst.

sharing the same family tree doesn’t often make people stay. find family in the ones who make you laugh uncontrollably. find family in the ones who take your side but also talk you through your wrongdoings. find family in the ones who would hop on a plane & fly across countries the moment you needed them. find family in the ones who rejoice in you, especially when you’re unsure of yourself. find the ones who will face the fire with you. - they’re your real family.

you are not a disappointment. you are not the culmination of what people expect of you. - life is not a pass or fail.