Credence

by Penelope Douglas

I used to watch them out my bedroom window late at night, my father pushing her and the magic of their play and laughter making me want to be in the middle of it. But I knew as soon as they saw me the magic would change. It would disappear.

Did her parents hate her??

They didn’t leave me a note. Even now, there was nothing they wanted to say to me.

Okay no wonder she runs into her uncles arms.... She's got daddy issues. and mommy issues.

“You just look like your mother.”

Was he into her mother and that's why they didn't get along?

He brought us back to the candy shop.

That's really cute

“and with some terrain steep and icy, it makes it impossible to make it to town for months with the roads closed.

So what you're saying is there's time to do nothing but bone??

“And you don’t have to call me uncle,”

Thank you

Or maybe he thinks me being a woman makes me a good cook?

I think he requested burnt bacon because he knew you'd burn it anyway

“Because I’m telling you they’re not your type,”

Is he already possessive of her???

It was always somewhere around 1:15 a.m., my parents had said.

Is this gonna be like Pen Pal?

It used to be my favorite place to kiss her.

Dude. You were so in love with her mom

“My little cousins, anyway.”

Don't call her your cousin if you're gonna fuck her please.

But he reaches between us with one hand, his forehead resting on mine with fire in his eyes as he starts ripping open his belt and undoing his jeans.

WHAT?? You haven't even said hello....

But suddenly, I hear a rock fall behind me, bouncing off a boulder or something, and I jerk around, scanning the woods I just walked through.

Dude its Kaleb following you

“because I couldn’t stop loving someone else.”

HER MOTHER

“You’re fucking lucky Kaleb found you and not me, because I wouldn’t have waited before you left before I fucking killed him.”

Daddy

Fucking prick.

Why does he hate his dad so much??

Everyone contemplates suicide at some point, even if it’s just for a minute. And one thing is usually the root cause. Loneliness.

He’s spilling his guts, and I’m standing there, getting turned on?

Yeah girl you need to start masterbating so you're not as desperate for the d

“I’m a lot safer than a guy. At least I can’t get you pregnant.”

DID SOMEONE GET HER PREGNANT??

“They were fucking fuckers.”

Eloquently Put

“And you probably shouldn’t walk around dressed like this,”

“Especially this winter.”

I'm thinking she should actually

But then the truck comes to a sudden stop, I lurch forward, and something slams into my chest.

Kaleb's arm??

I look down and see Kaleb’s arm is shot out in front of me, keeping me from diving head first through the windshield.

Knew itttt

“My mother said no woman should get married until they’ve had at least three

Are they gonna be her three?

“My mother said the first boy—or man—is a crush. You think you love them, but what you really love is how they make you feel. It’s not love. It’s lust. Lust for attention. Lust for danger. Lust to feel special.”

Jake.

Noah?

“Number two is where you finally learn what you’re capable of,”

“You start getting demanding. You grow bold, not afraid to start calling some shots. You’re also not afraid to be greedier in the bedroom, because it’s about what you want and not what he wants. Number two is to be used. In a way.”

Noah?

“Love.”

“When the lessons of your weakness with number one and your selfishness with number two sink in, and you find a middle ground. When you know who you are and you’re ready to welcome everything he is, and you’re not afraid anymore.”

Kaleb?

“I wish she was dead, because then I could love her.”

Why would he put a dream catcher on there?

Maybe he hears you wake up at night??? And wants your dreams to be happier?

Everything I do I hope Jake sees, and every move I make I hope Noah is watching.

Girl you just wanna be causing drama up in this house

He presses his lips hard to my forehead, and I still for a moment.

He's my favorite. He's loving her so quietly

But then a stern voice suddenly barks,

BUSTED.

I won’t survive the fucking winter.

Girl you better be getting dicked down all day everydy

I don’t have to look in the mirror to know what he wrote.

Is it whore??? Becausd buddy...

Snowfall is like a secret. It’s whispers and firelight and searching for his warmth between the sheets at two a.m. when the rest of the house is asleep.

I’m not sure these men will be different because of me, but I’ll be different because of them.

Yeah girl. Now you've had sex.

I watch as a small grin curls his lips, and he sticks a finger into his mouth, licking the blood off.

Gross.

There’s no history in new. No mystery.

“Daddy didn’t love you, so you let mine fuck you so he will.”

Savageeee

This load is six days’ worth of clothes. Where did five pairs of panties go?

Dude Kaleb totally took them

I wanna fuck my father’s little whore.”

How the hell did this start?

Did Terrance make it up there??

“I love you. You’re so fucking ours. We love you.”

I’m sleeping alone tonight.

You better not.

Both doors of the refrigerator are plastered with my sketches for the redesigns I’m doing on the furniture.

STOP KALEB PUT THEM ON THE FRIDGR. I LOVE HIM

I want that again. I want that a million more times, a lifetime’s worth. But I have a sneaky suspicion I’ll have a hard time finding it with anyone else.

BECAUSE HES YOUR PERSONNNN