One morning I was telling her the metaphor I had for the eating stuff, which was something from sound editing: The eating stuff was a track that ran in my brain under all the other tracks. Sometimes it would get so loud it would drown out all the other tracks; sometimes I could lower the volume, but I was never able to remove the track from the session. Deleting the track was the wrong idea, J. said; lowering the volume was good, but the main thing was to boost the other tracks. Boost the other tracks. Develop other strengths and ways to cope; raise the signal on all I’d neglected. This had
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