Another part of my fear of celebrating something as Really Happening is the fear that celebrating it will make me unable to be critical about it, which I fear will make me unable to do a good job at it. I have been trying to tell myself that I can have joy for something and still be critical of it, it’s just that I’ll become attentive out of love, instead of being critical out of fear, or out of anxiety, or out of some illusion of objective detachment, right?
