“My issue is that I have all these problems that I want to find practical solutions to. But whenever I start to think about them, I become nauseous. I get this excruciating sense that my existence is radically insecure. And . . . for whatever reason, investigating the person I just told you about takes my mind off it. I don’t really understand it myself. But the result is that I’m able to get in touch with my life indirectly through someone else’s. And I’m able to think about the things that I need to think about. There’s no way for me to do this directly. My body rejects it every time I try.
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