The Modern Break-Up

by Daniel Chidiac

Sometimes, where pure light is perceived, darkness lingers.

That’s part of the reason things are fucked these days, the reason we don’t understand each other. We don’t even have the respect to look someone in the eye and speak to them. We’re so quick to assume or judge on the most pathetic things,” I said.

“I feel like I’m too extreme. I don’t think I’m cut out to be with someone. I either love them too much or I just don’t care. It’s always one way or the other. Maybe I should’ve been less available to him. I should’ve made it harder for him to get my time.”

Being compatible with someone isn’t always about the obsessive feeling I initially get; I realize that now. It isn’t always waiting for their text, wondering what they’re doing all the time, or chasing because they’re running. That’s not being genuinely interested in who they are; that’s being fixated on trying to force an energy to sync when it doesn’t.

I know deep down that I should be stronger than this. I know that I need to close the door and accept that my love wasn’t appreciated. Not because it was wrong, but because I gave it to someone who couldn’t understand it. I know I went too deep in my emotions for him. I know that I surrendered my power, my trust, and my mind to him. I fell. And I’m not sure we should “fall” for anybody now. Why do we have to fall? I want to stand next time I love someone. I want to be stronger.

most times we don’t even know what we really want … we just seem to know what we definitely don’t want.

We’re part of a generation that can have anything at the click of a button— clothes, movies, information, and we expect that from love. We’re impatient when it comes to getting to know someone. We want to know pretty much right away whether we could be with them.

sick. Most people look for the closest exit when things aren’t working out because they can just replace someone with the next swipe. We’re so disposable, so replaceable. The fight to make a relationship work seems to be rarer with each generation.

“You have to stop expecting people who don’t love themselves to love you the way you love them.”