My attitude towards winning and losing too has evolved. Earlier, success was the cog on which everything turned. In winning, now, the primary emotion is one of gratitude and I’ve also learnt not to fret over bad results. Worrying, I’ve come to realize, is just a dark, blind alley and I need to step out of it naturally. Again, even though the desire for the big wins and titles lingers, I’m no longer fixated on either. It doesn’t mean I’m not pursuing success; just that the trappings and fetters don’t matter any more. It’s almost like a journey from obsession to freedom.
