I rack my mind for the memory of a definitive trigger, the sudden flip of a switch, an inciting incident that led me down this strange emotional path, but there wasn’t one. Sometimes I feel as though the change happened overnight, but I know that wasn’t the case. I didn’t just wake up one morning with my mind fundamentally altered. For me, it happened slowly. It crept up on me one tiny, disconcerting feeling after the other; a lifetime of peace was slowly but still abruptly disrupted by all-encompassing feelings of unease and I couldn’t make
