Years of talk radio had taught me the same lesson as the Catholic Church: I was afraid of not being afraid. I feared the Democrats, who disagreed with Bush’s tactics. I feared the terrorists, who could attack us at any time. If I didn’t cultivate my fear, then the boogeymen might catch me by surprise. So, I rooted for Bush. I wanted him to invade anyone and everyone. I didn’t mind feeling vengeful and defensive, because it meant that I didn’t have to feel vulnerable.
