Tomorrow, you’ll be making a book out of it. There will be interviews and readings. You’ll travel, pose for photographs, jumping across cities, jet-setting around the country, going to bed with any man you fancy that night. The writer. The free woman.
These are the words that you imbibe into yourself. You start believing in them. They crawl all over you every time you do anything that reminds you of him. You think you are a whore. You deserve the punishment that he meted out to you. You are worthless. Tiny lice crawling inside your brain. It is these insects that are difficult to remove. They persist inside your brain and the minute you think they are not eating you out, they come back with a vengence! These are the thoughts that make the abuse stay with her forever!
