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And if I can’t get Bernadette to see who I really am, then I’m afraid I’ll never wake up.
“Excellent observation,” Oscar says,
he is definitely the scary one.
“We have a video of him,” Vic says, nodding his chin in Neil’s direction. “With your sister Penelope.”
WTF!? how do they have that? how long have they had it?
Oscar staring down at me. “Chin up, Bernadette. There is no rest for the wicked.”
I kinda really like Oscar. I think it's just the mystery of him.
“Just to be clear: I’m not upset that Danny Ensbrook is dead. I’m upset that I did it with too many witnesses, and that I put us all at risk. I’d kill the world to save you, Bernadette.”
I LOVE cal. he may be my favorite
“You let him die, and I'll cut your fucking balls off.”
oh, he'll just live that.
“What happens on All Hallows’ Eve, stays on All Hallows' Eve. Don't bring it up again.”
I mean, yeah. can't talk about that.
The video with … Penelope.
she shouldn't have watched that.
I throw the iPad as hard as I can against one of the walls, shattering both the screen and the mirror.
oh, Oscar is going to be pissed.
Now that, that is one dangerous motherfucking kiss.
I figured it would be
Even if—and that’s a big if—someone took it seriously, what sort of time would he be looking at? I hate to tell you this, Bernie, but our world is fucked. It’s fucked up and broken and ugly as hell.”
yeah, that's what o was thinking. turning the video in would do nothing.
“Don’t pretend you didn’t get off on seeing me with Aaron,” I whisper
lol he is so grumpy
She's wearing an apron, her face covered in bruises. One pink heel is still clinging to her foot, the other is missing. “What the actual fuck?!” Hael roars,
and... that's gang violence at it's best. can't separate your private life from the gang drama.
But people who kill other people are murderers, right? Villains. Only a villain can truly stop another villain. There is no room in this world for heroes; they only get in the way.
agreed. where is Deadpool when you need him?
“Is it true that Vic is the only one who wanted me in Havoc?”
yes, stupid. because he's the most selfish out of all of them. they wanted you to have a chance.
“It was about you. You were attached to Aaron; you were too attached to us. We needed to show you this wasn't a life you wanted to live.”
um... that's bs
“It was about you.” They tortured me, not for Kali, but to get rid of me? I can’t decide if that makes the pain I suffered worse … or better?
um... I say worse... eesh
This isn't fair. I called Havoc. This is my time. Mine. Sophomore year was stolen from me; I deserve senior year to go right.
tantrum much?
He who dares not grasp the thorn Should never crave the rose. Anne Brontë was overlooked in her time. I’ve stolen her words. You will not steal mine. I’m not afraid of thorns; I will pluck the petals from your rose. Even if I have to pay the price in blood.
the poems are so cringy
“But as a friend once said, your face isn’t pregnant.”
lol. cal
We don’t have to talk about it. Just decide what it is that you want.”
that's a hard one lol
I come out the door, taking a seat next to Oscar because, let's be honest, knowing that he hates me means we have the easiest relationship out of everyone here.
lol I CANNOT WAIT for Oscar to break because it's going to be wild.
“If Vic doesn’t want you to be his queen, I might have an opening you could fill?”
he's so fun lol.
And yet another thing I have to tell him: me and Cal at the studio.
nothing happened at the damned studio, girl. let that shit go.
“You can’t be serious?” Oscar asks, scowling as he puts his iPad aside. “You’re on a very short leash, Victor. Can’t you see it? This girl is going to ruin us.” Oscar gestures at me
he's very right. I just want to know how Victor is gonna let this whole RH happen when it's looking like he is never gonna let that shit happen
“I seem to have missed the memo. I wasn’t aware you two were soul mates; I was under the impression this was a marriage of convenience.” “What did you mean by ‘you’ll be mine’, exactly?” Callum asks,
yes Cal! asking the right questions lol
yes, Victor. what DID you mean?
“I say this with the utmost respect, Bernadette,” he purrs, leaning down to look at me, almost close enough to kiss. “Fuck you.”
that's where you say "no thanks, I've got plenty of that" lol
“You're not taking a drive alone with my man,” I say,
girl, what?violence since when? this shit is hilarious
“Holy shit,” Hael
oh, yeah. he liked that lol.
“That won't be possible,” Oscar amends, before I get a chance to second-guess my own self-control. “Bernadette is a member of Havoc; Hael is a member of Havoc. These things are signed and sealed in blood; they cannot be undone.”
you tell her Oscar lol
“No, I don't, but I could if I wanted to. Havoc is family, and you are not family and will never be. So. I will look into your request and get back to you with a price, but what Bernadette and Hael do in the bedroom is not and will never be your business.”
damn right. also, i live this because he hates this as much as she does but he is not going to give an inch.
“About all that shit you said about me being yours,” Hael starts,
dude. not the time.
No, he’s definitely talking about me.
and he's right.
“Why would they care if you were dating me
duh.
“He's been obsessed with you for years. Even in elementary school …”
he pushed a boy for you girl. crush.
“Do you think you might be pregnant?”
I mean... there's something in the water.
Guess that's it, isn't it? This war is officially fucking on.
hell yeah, that puts the kids in danger.
“You and Oscar are going to run an errand of your own.”
he sends her with Oscar because he's the only one who isn't hitting on her. lol.
“Despite the fact that you’ve barged into a smoothly running operation and thrown it entirely off its rails, Victor wants to continue with your list. I suggested we step back from it and deal with more pertinent matters, but apparently your cunt is made of glitter and rainbows.”
LMFAO Oscar is fun. like... not fun? but like... fun. iykyk
am I just as selfish as the rest of the world?
yes.
So … the reason nothing sexual could happen between you is because of the setting, Bernie? And not because he hates you, and you hate him?
duh
“Some boys just don't know how to share their toys,”
My boy only breaks his favorite toys
I'm queen of sand castles he destroys...
this song just started playing in my head here lol. perfect.
“We're not a gang, Bernie, we're a family,” Aaron says
debatable.
“Stay out of the bathroom for a while,” he announces, loudly enough that everyone in that room hears him. “And if you think you can quite literally catch me with my pants down, I’m packing a .22 in my boot.”
yup. not asking now.
Since elementary school, we’ve tried to look out for her. Shit, we made a pact when we were thirteen to watch from afar but keep romance out of it.
of course
There must be something on my face when I get back that screams just got my brains fucked out by Aaron Fadler because Vic takes one look at me and scowls.
LMFAO
“You’ve worked out your differences?” Vic asks,
you could say that lol
adjusting myself and lifting my legs up to put my feet against the side of the doorjamb on one side, and against a shelf on the other. Good thing it’s screwed into the drywall because I’m about to abuse the hell out of it.
I'm not even gonna try to figure out what the he'll that looks like.
“What if I told you we'd complete your list, that we'd let you stay with us for the rest of the year, but that you could walk away at graduation? How would you like that? You could even take your cut of Vic's inheritance with you.”
yeah he's just trying to catch her in a lie or trying his best to not trust her.
“You’re all forgiven.”
aaand now we start building something
