Startled, Zhu remembered the desperate, animal need to survive that had driven her to claim Zhu Chongba’s life. Even now she could feel it inside her. She had never before connected it to the desire that was the subject of the Dharma Master’s lectures. For a moment she felt the burn of that old coal of resentment. It didn’t seem fair that while others earned their suffering for pleasure, she should earn hers for nothing more than wanting to live.
