Do Existential Kink on both the pain of pursuing your desire and the pain of not already having it, (i.e., the pain of your current “don't like” situation of not yet having the new boyfriend, or the completed novel, or the cash, or the liberation of all sentient beings). I really just dare you to cherish both kinds of pain, as they're equally wonderful. At the end of three months, if you've stayed focused on pursuing your reason-less desire, you will have your shit vastly more together than it is right now. At such a juncture, either decide to keep pursuing the same reason-less desire, or
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