Existential Kink: Unmask Your Shadow and Embrace Your Power (A method for getting what you want by getting off on what you don't)

by Carolyn Elliott

It was in reflecting on this phenomenon of sexual kink/BDSM especially that Existential Kink was born. I started to wonder why it is that we don't usually experience the painful parts of life as similar playful pleasure. I think it has to do with the matter of choice. People participating in BDSM consciously choose to be tied up and flogged, and that element of deliberate choice allows them to experience that pain and bondage as a kind of play, as something fun. But usually when painful things happen in our lives, we don't feel that we have a “choice” whether or not to experience them as pain, so we don't find it very fun—instead we tend to experience it as very disempowering and defeating. So a big part of Existential Kink involves deciding to at least start by “pretending” (i.e., experimentally accepting the axiom “having is evidence of wanting”) that some hitherto-unconscious part of you playfully, humorously, curiously chooses and desires a given painful situation, behavior, stream of thought, or mood. When you make a kinky game of it, you greatly expand your sense of agency, you unite your will, and you open up room for a sense of fun and playfulness to come into the scene.