I didn’t imagine myself as a man but in those moments when I felt swept up by power that surged like confidence and sureness, I didn’t imagine myself as a woman. I wanted to be rugged, invincible, unstoppable, and I didn’t have examples of women who were those things.
As a child, I visualized myself being something competent and well received in the world—I saw myself as a handsome man, even though I realized that was not possible.