“I’ve spent my whole life reading beautiful books and watching beautiful movies, dreaming that there was some real place out there where I would fit in and be beautiful, too. And now I’m here. And I don’t want to leave. I don’t want to get an ugly job in an ugly office full of shit like staplers and fax machines. I don’t want to write memos. I don’t want us all to move far away from each other and grow up and forget to call. I don’t want to get fat. I don’t want to be tired. I don’t know. I just . . . sometimes I can’t imagine anything good happening to me. After Catherine.”
