Only Mostly Devastated

by Sophie Gonzales

Anyone can play a note. Talent’s what you do with the notes.

What if I betrayed queer women by doing that? Even if it was for me, and I didn’t give a shit what those guys thought, wasn’t I still basically reinforcing the idea that my sexuality is just there to get a guy off?

I don’t exist for any guy’s pleasure,

What a way to go through life. Trying out crazy things on the off chance that they might make you happy.

I hadn’t gone out of my way to do something just for him that didn’t benefit me in any way. I’d been so focused on what I wanted from Will that I’d never really stopped to think about what he might want from me.