I’m not watching it, James says when I ask him. I just can’t. But you’re welcome to come over here anyhow; I’m sure the boys will have it on. Which is what I do. I sit on the couch (Steven’s couch) with Rob, while Ted leans expressionless against the wall behind us. No one is flirting tonight. We’re barely breathing. The guy being interviewed is twenty-seven. Eleven years older than me. In his “before” photo, he’s someone I might have found myself attracted to. In his interview, he’s dying. Worse than dying, which I never thought could be possible. Distorted. Marked with purple splotches.
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This 20/20 episode with Kenny Ramsauer was a defining point for many in my group. It made everything very, very real and very, very terrifying.
