“When you’re in a canoe, you always float downriver. Nothing can change your direction. Something could come along and capsize your boat—rapids, a storm, a fallen tree—but there’s no force in the world strong enough to reverse your course. If you’re on that river, you’re going down that river. I feel like my marriage changed directions on me. It decided to swim upstream. And that feels even more unnatural than if the whole mess just sank altogether.
