Ellie and the Harpmaker

by Hazel Prior

A thought: Some things are easier to hide than others. A fact: Harps come under the ‘others’ category. So do small boys. A quote from Shakespeare: ‘If music be the food of love, play on.’

I should pick a dream, any dream, any one of the hundreds, and just try and see if I could make it come true. Just one. Realistically, one could be possible, if I tried hard enough. Because he didn’t want me to come to the end of my life full of regrets.

Today the sea is slate-grey, laced with a thousand dancing threads of blue and silver. It seems to reflect my overwhelming sense that wonderful things are possible in this world after all.

it’s not helpful pondering what might have been, because you can’t change that. You can only change what will be.

In my opinion the real person inside the person-shell craves and needs music every day, otherwise the real person shrivels up into nothingness.

Sometimes the ifs work for you and sometimes they work against you. Sometimes you think they are working for you whereas in fact they are working against you, and sometimes you think they are working against you whereas in fact they are working for you. It is only when you look back that you realize, and you don’t always realize even then.

but I am made of all the wrong ingredients. I know that now.