“They need to realize how much they need you. Let them sweat out there.” “Why does that matter so much to you?” I shut my eyes and took a deep breath. This was my moment. To be real with him. To be honest. “Because if we get found out, I don’t want your career to be over.” His head reared back like I had slapped him. I dropped one more bomb. “I don’t know what you want but I want whatever this is, to continue. And I don’t want you to have to choose between hockey and me.”