When we first began our bet, you told me that I was fake, and that’s the truest thing I’ve ever been called. I am fake. I fake being popular. I fake loving parties. I fake being content with life. I fake fitting in. I am fake through every fiber of my soul, except for a small corner that’s real solely for you. I love myself when I’m with you. Each day I wake up and think of you, and I know why I’m here. I know why I’m fighting each day when everything feels hopeless. I know what the point is and that scares me. It scares me how much I love myself when I’m with you, because what will happen
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