I was animated by a set of twin desires that I now understand will never be satisfied: the need to understand, and to be understood.
Seems like this is a human thing, not just her. I have this too and know it's not just me. But maybe the emphasis is on the suppression - which is a familiar thing to me with regard to the church and being a woman there. There is the need to be seen as a faithful member so as not to be disfellowshipped. Being woman involves extra suppression since they are to be silent, per Timothy.
