“What about the parts that aren’t about the pain? The parts that are about”—and I can’t tell in the dark hallway, but I think she blushes—“about doing what someone says?” Mmm. Those are my favorite parts. “It’s like being loved,” I say. “Like loving.” “But Rebecca doesn’t love you,” Delphine says sharply. “She hardly knows you.” “I didn’t say she loved me. I said it’s like being loved. It’s like—” I break off, not wanting her to misunderstand. After four years of BDSM, you’d think I’d be better at explaining why I do it in the first place. I start again. “Maybe it is love in a way. You don’t
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