She Just Wants to Forget (What She Felt) (Volume 2)

by R.H. Sin

Your father, inconsistent. His hands barely there to protect you, his hands barely there to shield you and so you had to learn about wolves on your own. He was never present enough and somehow that led you to entertaining relationships with men who were just as inconsistent as he’s always been.

moving on is so slow. You feel it in your heart and even worse in your soul.

you yourself are way too valuable to be dealing with some guy with some nerves with mostly pain in his words that sound like love at first.

your parents refused to teach you and so these men would eventually teach you that you are unworthy of ev...

The woman you chose to overlook and neglect decided to love herself rather than continue falling for someone who would never catch her.

you don’t bother to tell them that there’s more because you know that not everyone deserves all of which you have to offer.

Entertaining relationships that come with dead ends. Falling in love with people who will never catch you.

with someone who would do anything to keep you.

you say things with your silence but people rarely comprehend it you’re so used to being ignored and so you say nothing in hopes of avoiding the disappointment that still comes for you like the flu during the winter

You and I, strangers, familiar with the same chaos that plagues the heart of someone willing to love people who are incapable of loving us back.

I know love has felt unkind but the truth is, the love you’ve come to know has never been anything more than a distraction or a wall, keeping you from seeing the real thing.

Who you are is not to be wrapped up into who is pursuing you.

Don’t be so distracted by this need to be with someone that you forget about yourself and all the things you deserve.

Sometimes I think you were never really mine to begin with.

I feel like this was more of a dream that spoiled into a nightmare but at the same time I feel awake with my eyes closed.

I’ll say it without shame, the decision to be with me over whomever you were with before me fed my ego.

Her first love was her father, he taught her to settle because in order to love him, she had to put aside his worst traits. She had to ignore all of his flaws. She took a cracked canvas and painted over it in an attempt to make something beautiful.

He taught her how to love a man and so she went on to care for men who lacked the same things her father did.

who you were before me will never stop me from loving the person you’ve evolved into you are not your mistakes you are not the brokenness you’ve felt you are more than a girl who knew nothing but pain you are that someone who saved me

Struggling to find sleep while it is you that I miss.

Maybe she’s single by choice. Maybe she’s decided that after some time of being overlooked, underappreciated and neglected that she no longer wants to be placed in a situation where she feels like she’s wasting her time. Maybe she’s single because she promised herself to never settle for less than what she’s always wanted and deserves.

I honestly think it’s sad that men have this ability to manipulate and change the narrative of what a woman wants by making her feel as if she’s asking for too much.

Love doesn’t neglect the soul or disrespect the mind or fail to protect the heart.