She Just Wants to Forget (What She Felt) (Volume 2)

by R.H. Sin

“It’s crazy how sometimes you have to be destroyed to be made anew,”

You are mighty even though your struggles stand like giants in the doorway of your happiness.

You have the ability to hold on even when it hurts.

I wrote this because you’re ready to read it and I hope these words encourage you to move on.

No one is there to lend a helping hand but somehow you end up reaching for yourself because it’s always been that way, hasn’t it? You’ve been all you’ve had since the beginning.

Your parents weren’t much help, your struggles began early on and here you are as a result of everything that has happened to you. Here you are today in this moment, struggling through all the things that you have no control over. Your father, inconsistent.

and so you had to learn about wolves...

It was never hard to tell; I think deep down she always knew that there was something going on. Even if you decided to say nothing, even when you thought you were so skilled at hiding whatever it was. Deep down, she always knew and yet she decided to say nothing. She decided to say nothing because maybe the truth was something she wasn’t ready to face. Maybe she knew that coming to terms with what she’d discover would force her to do everything that she was avoiding all along. They say everything done in the darkness will somehow find it’s moment in the light and this is exactly what happened even when you don’t know that it has. Even when you think that for some odd reason you’ll never be found out. She knows, she knows, she knows and she’ll say nothing for now because right now the lies ironically feel a bit safer. As strange as it may be, the lies you told, the lies she chose to believe have prevented her from facing a horrible truth. She knows and one day when she’s ready, she’ll move forward from you …

Something so rare and still you decided to treat her as if her everything was nothing and so she began the process of cleansing herself of what she initially felt for you. The woman you chose to overlook and neglect decided to love herself rather than continue falling for someone who would never catch her.

you deserve so much more than what you’ve had in the past.

my mistake was thinking that she had the same heart as you.

So when others aim low in your direction, rise above their jealousy and negativity, high enough to where they will never be able to reach you because anyone who prefers to focus on your lows instead of your peaks has no place in your life.

What are you running from? What truth lies beneath the spine of your book? What have you been concealing with that smile? Where do you go when you need to go so far that you can get away from the pain and the struggle of realizing that none of this will ever be easy to escape? The darkness drapes itself over your heart and you can’t help but crave a light that’ll show you the way toward something better. Your feet are tired from walking in circles of hope invested in people filled with the wrong type of energy. People who say just enough to make you stay, just enough to make you feel like walking away will somehow push you further into the darkness even though you’ve already experienced the worst part. What are you running from? Who are you trying to escape? Where do you go when going away is possibly the only thing you have left?

weak men cheat weak men lie weak men make no effort weak men cause confusion weak men deserve none of you or anything you have to offer weak men will read this and be offended weak men will read this and never change stay away from weak men do not waste your strength on a man too weak to love you

i hope you find someone who hates hurting your heart

there will be moments where you feel like quitting there will be days where it all feels like too much there will be nights where sleep will escape you and waking up the next morning will be the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do but no matter what storm may come you will always survive because you are more powerful than anything that arrives to break you

You’re always fighting for someone but who fights for you?

maybe the love you deserve is just something they were never willing to give you.

your life does depend on your ability to walk away from people who refuse to give you reasons to stay.

peace. It’s hard for so many women to walk away because their minds have been flooded with ideas on how to continue showing up in relationships that feel more like prison sentences.

a love that doesn’t have to hurt.

Hard to believe in a love that feels like joy when you’ve settled for a love that resembles hell.

goals for this year: survive, again.

don’t complain about her being cold knowing damn well she wasted her warmth on you

she’s a wolf but even wolves feel pain

i don’t want to say i suffer from depression i thrive through it

give me friendship tell me the truth always try to understand me especially when i open up and let’s communicate more give me the freedom of being able to trust you without doubt and i will love you for life

you are not fabric do not let him try you on

Stop trying to keep a person who doesn’t deserve to stay.

You’ve been drowning, nearly dying, but you must save yourself. You must remain defiant because deep down, even though it may not feel like it, you have the heart and the pride of several lions.

the sadness came for me and there was nothing I could do but sit up in the dark, looking toward the moon for clarity. Struggling to find my peace of mind in the dark hues of the night.

I miss you, I miss me. I lost you and lost myself.

be careful who you give your midnights to

You can attempt to lie to her but she’ll always discover the truth.

the drama is unattractive and completely underwhelming

He hides you because he’d much rather appear available when in all honesty, he’s technically taken by you. He’s not fully invested and it becomes apparent by his refusal to showcase his appreciation for you. It’s the same old bullshit. They’ll hit you with the being private conversation and how much they value their privacy as they continuously post some of the most private and sentimental moments in their lives via social media while conveniently leaving you out of the picture as if you don’t even exist. Now if you’re the woman who tells people that it’s just I.G. or it’s just social media and that you don’t care that you’re not important enough to be shared on his timeline, then these words aren’t for you. I’m only talking to the women who are tired of being treated as if they don’t matter. I’m only speaking to the women who are tired of being left out of picture . . . literally. I honestly think it’s sad that men have this ability to manipulate and change the narrative of what a woman wants by making her feel as if she’s asking for too much. So, I know that there will be some women who read this, pretending that they don’t care, as if that makes them appear to be strong or secure but in all honesty, it doesn’t. It actually hurts me to see or know that you’ve found yourself in a relationship with someone who would rather treat you like they’re embarrassed to be with you.

A man who hides you is hiding something that’ll eventually break your heart.

She renewed her own journey, she saved her own soul.

she made pain look beautiful the way she survived the way she chose to move forward even when giving up felt like the best option

The longer you stay in a relationship with someone who refuses to love you, the more you shorten the length of the future you’d otherwise spend with your soulmate.

losing you would never be a loss

she screamed pain with silence she wore heartache with a smile

The mind always knows, even while the heart takes longer to process the truth, but you knew. You always knew.

how easy it is to become a poet when your heart is flooded with pain and misery

There is beauty in a sadness that allows you to feel deeply, there is beauty in the end because it gives way to a new beginning. There is beauty in the broken because in crumbling beneath emotion, there’s this opportunity to be strengthened by anything that has hurt you.

we see seclusion and silence as a way to renew. A way to reboot.

strong but tired of dealing with versions of love that felt more like hatred.