She Just Wants to Forget (What She Felt) (Volume 2)

by R.H. Sin

I wrote this for the woman in search of a reminder of who she’s always been. A reminder of who she was before the heartache, before the madness. I wrote this for the woman who has seen a large share of heartbreak, the woman who finds herself tired of being strong, tired of standing in the middle of the storm. I wrote this for the woman who continues to demand more even in the eyes of those who would rather do less. I wrote this for her because she … you … deserve it. You have been through so much and yet you continue to hold your head high, and though you’ve been constantly disappointed, you find new and rare ways to hold on to this sort of hope that feels more like magic. You are powerful even in moments where weakness chases you. You are mighty even though your struggles stand like giants in the doorway of your happiness. I wrote this for you because you are a remarkable woman.

There’s a light that lives within you that could rival the sun and a glow in your eyes that could distract from the moon on its darkest night.

I wrote these words for the woman in search of a reminder of who she’s always been.

I wrote these words for the woman who is tired of fighting for someone who only wants to fight her.

I wrote this because you’re ready to read it and I hope these words encourage you to move on.

Honestly, you figured them out to be liars but even then you held on to this hope that one day their words would somehow catch up to their actions. It never does, though, and moving on is so slow.

The woman you chose to overlook and neglect decided to love herself rather than continue falling for someone who would never catch her.

I think there’s this part of you that will mean the world to the right person, but until then, you will always mean the world to yourself and there is nothing wrong with protecting your light from those who will only represent darkness.

because anyone who prefers to focus on your lows instead of your peaks has no place in your life.

weak men cheat weak men lie weak men make no effort weak men cause confusion weak men deserve none of you or anything you have to offer weak men will read this and be offended weak men will read this and never change stay away from weak men do not waste your strength on a man too weak to love you

she felt like feeling nothing she just wants to forget she just wants to free herself she’s just tired of regret she is you and she is ready she’s been searching for something more she is ready to move on she’s closer to the door

i hope you find someone who hates hurting your heart

if all you ever have is yourself then you will save you and that, in fact, is enough

there is something about you that most people will never appreciate but you must learn to love yourself even when others can’t

you don’t belong to him no man can own the moon

the way women can withstand several storms all at once is something to be inspired by

It’s your turn to know how it feels to be with someone who would do anything to keep you.

It’s possible that their confusion has fooled you into believing that someday they’ll change but maybe the love you deserve is just something they were never willing to give you.

I believe that you are smart enough and strong enough to survive the aftermath of leaving behind the people you believed loved you. I believe in your ability to let go just as you’ve believed in their lies long enough to hold on.

people rarely hear you you’re so used to being ignored neglected, disrespected and overlooked entirely there’s this weariness in your eyes and it shows whenever you stare off into the night sky trying to withstand it all refusing to fall even as your knees give way to loads of heartache you press on and press forward without taking a break running along the lines of giving in without taking a breath how much longer can you survive how much further will you go

they rarely hear you they rarely care but you never give up and that itself is the most powerful thing you could ever do

You and I, strangers, familiar with the same chaos that plagues the heart of someone willing to love people who are incapable of loving us back.

Those lists in magazines that give women tips on how to maintain relationships should actually be teaching women how to let go of one that no longer makes them happy. Do these publications even realize that by providing tips in every issue for women to follow, that they’re actually making the woman out to be the issue when she really isn’t?

I know relationships have been difficult, they weigh heavily on your heart as you struggle to move forward but those relationships were more like a version of hell that you didn’t deserve.

overwhelmed by sadness and yet underwhelmed by you.

I thought my heart couldn’t take any more bad news but it’s not like I was given a choice and you most likely no longer care about breaking me down any further.

I guess it’s hard to prepare for an end that arrives so sudden. I think it’s difficult to prepare for a death when there are moments where you feel so alive with the person you’ve fought so hard to keep.

All I ever wanted was a truth you weren’t capable of telling and a love that you were never ready to provide.

I get it now but I’ve come to these realizations a moment too late to spare myself from falling over into a pit of my own despair. I completely understand but that doesn’t make it hurt any less than it has. I believe I saw it coming but I decided to pay more attention to the good even though the bad was a major component in our relationship.

It’s midnight and my heart is probably the same shade as the moon tonight. Bleak and pale, nearly empty of any hue that would suggest that I even know what true happiness is. Bleak and empty, without any color and all that is left is this newfound darkness that currently complicates my existence. All that remains is the nothing you left me with but for some odd reason, I know that I’ll survive this.

Let go of him because the love you claim to have for him causes you pain. Let go of him by choosing happiness over pain and heartache.

Hard to believe in a love that feels like joy when you’ve settled for a love that resembles hell.

who will you become when you refuse to settle for less than you deserve

the energy you wasted on trying harder for him give it to yourself

don’t complain about her being cold knowing damn well she wasted her warmth on you

she is king she could rule without him

she was more than enough but you lost her

she ran barefoot through the fiery chaos without fear because flames can’t stop the woman who is used to surviving

she’s a wolf but even wolves feel pain

i don’t want to say i suffer from depression i thrive through it

whatever he denied her of she decided to give to herself

rebel against this idea of letting him hurt your heart rebel against the pain he wants you to feel make him irrelevant by remembering that he is not a prize and that you were always worth fighting for

who you were before me will never stop me from loving the person you’ve evolved into

you are not your mistakes you are not the brokenness you’ve felt

all in all you deserve someone who you can be vulnerable with and not worry about being hurt because of it

and deep down i simply hope that you’ll read this and realize that you are better without the people who hurt you

She’s at war with her own heart, struggling with the idea of him and the truth of his actions.

In the beginning she was hopeful, similar to any start. Not knowing that this particular ending would eventually tear her apart.

she is evolving into the woman you will never deserve

she transformed into everything you could never comprehend