As Brené Brown sagely says, ‘We can’t selectively numb out emotion. Numb the dark and you numb the light.’ Ergo, when you numbed out the bad stuff, you numbed out the good stuff too. You will now swerve wildly between extremes of euphoria and wretchedness. You’ll find yourself floored by shame as a blackout corpse bobs to the surface of your memory, aargh, and you’ll frantically try to shove it back into the murky depths with your oar.