But I knew God was doing something, and I wasn’t going to fight against it anymore. I wasn’t going to try to numb my panic. I was going to let go, surrender, and trust where God was leading me. I had new hope, and that night I made a plan. I set my alarm for 5:15 a.m. the next morning. I slept hard that night and when the alarm woke me, I was ready to go. I got up and made my way to my leather chair. I had recently been given the Passion translation of the Bible, and I decided to use this version. I wanted to start with a new copy that had unmarked pages to bring a fresh
