I Can Be a Better You

by Tarryn Fisher

I overthink things, yes? My mind is like a computer with too many tabs left open.

The future was sealed: my sister would return to the cheater. A woman’s heart was an awful curse. She’d take him back, but probably remind him of his failure for the rest of his life. That was the nature of forgiveness. It came with a price.

“Humans are monogamous creatures. We stray when our happiness is threatened. Happiness is tied to survival. We feel as if we are failing if we aren’t happy, especially when we open any social media panel and see our friends hashtagging all the good things in their lives. It’s all fake. We are all more in limbo than we are happy.”

“You shouldn’t have to change,” I said. “He married you for who you are. When you start changing little things, the big things change, too.”

I can make you a part of something great and beautiful and still portray you as the ugly thing you are.