And it was fun to put his dick inside her, a different kind of masturbation, and she was sarcastic and had cute clothes, and so what if he couldn’t ever fall in love with her? She didn’t love him either, and wouldn’t. She was proving something on him too. Boys were harder, easier, more dangerous, and mostly Paul just wanted them more, but something was better than nothing, when it came to sex, and always, always he was curious. As a kid he’d been as interested in girls’ bodies as boys’: the thrill of information versus the thrill of the unspeakable.
