“Well, I was afraid of what I—we—might do. I mean, I really wanted you, Jay, and I have to admit, there have been many times that I’ve kicked myself for not going for it.” He tilts his head and looks at me. “But I didn’t want to take advantage of you. I mean, you’d been through so much in such a short time. Jake. Your parents. Combine that with the fact that it would’ve been your first time. I don’t know. It just didn’t seem like the right thing to do. I

