dead. I’ve learned over the years there’s a big difference between wishing you were dead and wanting to kill yourself. When I’m in the eye of a particularly fierce emotional storm like this one, I often wish myself out of existence or that I’d never been born at all, but I am no closer to killing myself than those without suicidal thoughts are. For me, these thoughts are entirely passive. ‘Oh, wouldn’t it be lovely if I were dead?’ is really a thought akin to, ‘Oh, wouldn’t it be lovely if I had wings and could fly?’ While it’s nice to dream of having wings and the freedom they’ll allow me,
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