Then, out of desperation, I take to believing I’m not supposed to be here, that I was never meant to be born. I convince myself I don’t belong on this planet, because if I did, I would know how to be here. I feel like a lost and confused child who is being forced to navigate her way through a very adult world. I often wonder if this is what it’s going to feel like forever, if I will always see life through this veil of despair. ‘If this is life,’ I think, ‘I don’t want it.’
