Evidence of the Affair

by Taylor Jenkins Reid

It is funny the crazy things our brains make up to save us from the truth.

It was just easier to consider the possibility that he’d changed his entire personality overnight than it was to believe that he would cheat. But he’s the same Ken I’ve always known and loved and still eats a turkey sandwich every day. It’s just that he’s capable of things I never knew.

You asked how I hide it all. I don’t know. I guess I find it pretty easy to look like nothing is happening when everything has changed.

She deserves so much better 😭

You are only for me. It is as if I have lived with a hard shell all over my body and you have cracked it and it has all fallen off. I am fresh again.

David, Do you ever feel like your life got away from you somehow? Lately, it feels like my whole life has a similar feeling to when you check the clock on a Saturday and realize it’s already half past four.

My mother has always told me that I have more opportunities, as a woman of my generation, than she ever had. She made it seem like I had an obligation to use them how she would have.

But, honestly, I just wanted to marry a nice man who made a good living and have children. I guess I’m no women’s libber.

Lying has just become so much easier than telling the truth. I don’t remember when things got so hard. But life has been a matter of keeping our heads above water for years now.

Often, I feel overwhelmed by this sinking feeling in my heart that I will never be enough.

I wanna give her the biggest and the longes hug in the world 🫂

Carrie, I promise you there is no ugly part of your heart.

Ahh i love themm

I realize there is a thin line between a good idea and a god-awful one, so if I’ve crossed a line even suggesting it, I understand.

I’ve always been struck by the idea that you can’t be all that happy something has returned if it doesn’t go away in the first place.

But what if the thing goes away and never comes back? Is it corny to say my heart feels like an eternal December with no April in sight? Of course it is. Anyone who compares their heart to anything weather related is a square.

I have never felt so alone. Alone in the world and alone in my marriage. Alone in love, really. With a man who claims he never loved me.

Sometimes, I swear, I’m invisible. And yet, frankly, David, I often find it to be a relief. I can’t stand the idea of him truly looking at me right now. There is so much I do not want him to see.

You did a wonderful job of cheering me up. I was laughing through my tears, and that is quite a gift. So, truly, David, thank you.

I feel so hopelessly pathetic. So unloved, so unremarkable. I feel like the girl at the party nobody wants to dance with.

There I am, hoping someone might choose me, while the rest of the world goes on dancing.

But lately I find that in those moments, I think of you. I am not alone at the party. You are at this miserable party with me. And it brings a smi...

Talking to you on the phone these few times this week has been the highlight of my days.

You are the very definition of a breath of fresh air.

Carrie Allsop, you are never the woman no one will ask to dance. I will be here dancing with you for as long as we want to get groovy. All right, that was truly lame. I’ll quit w...

But with you, I felt like I could talk, finally. Talk about anything and everything.

And what a pleasure you were to listen to as well. It has been a long time since I laughed that hard, since I was that interested in learning what someone had to say.

Delights can be hard to come by recently, so I truly cherish getting to laugh with you.

Sometimes I think mine might turn to stone any minute now, and yet every time I see you I soften, reminded of how you still choose kindness over anger at every step.

David, Thank you for all your kind words. It seems as if you see me exactly as I wish to be seen. There is no greater gift than that.

You lack nothing at all. I hope you see that. You are everything a man could want in a woman.

Carrie, If I have helped show you just how extraordinary your strength is, then I have paid you back only some small percent. You might just be solely responsible for carrying me through.

I wish I could tell you how often your name comes to the tip of my tongue, how many times a day I find myself thinking of something you said. The other day, someone at work was talking about peanut butter, and I had to stop myself from mentioning that you have converted me to cream cheese on toast forever.

I still can’t believe just how many ways in which you have enlightened my life. You are the second half of my heart nowadays, Carrie Ann. ...

I am currently at a gas station in San Clemente on my way home, and I saw this postcard with a sandbar on it and had to send it to you. I left you just a moment ago, and yet I still miss the sound of your voice, the way you smell like coconuts. I can’t believe you didn’t know you smell like coconuts!

It breaks my heart that no one had been smelling your hair. You are a revelation. And beside you, I could feel nothing but peace.

Thank you for helping me remember how to be happy. Love, Carrie

Carrie, It is I who should be thanking you. You have reminded me that no matter what happens with my marriage, all is not lost. There is still beauty out there, still unexpected wonders.

I ship them but i know they won't end together 😭

The only silver lining, should all this end in disaster, is that there is you.

Protect your happiness at all costs.

You have changed me for the rest of my life, and if I had to go through all this, I’m lucky to have gone through it with you. You will be in my heart forever. Take care of yourself. You deserve only the best. All my love, David

I think the plan should be just as you said. We should aim to take him for “all that he is worth.”

You gave me hope and perspective and confidence. Right before you gave me my baby.

OMG!?!??! JUST IN ONE TRYYYY

Margaret and I are two little peas in a pod. I will take care of her with all my heart until my dying breath. She is in the very best hands. She will be loved from here to eternity.

I love her simply for existing. And I love her because she has been my liberation. My life may not be perfect, but at least I can finally say it belongs to me.

I'm so happy for her 🥺

Thank you, David. For everything. We love you. Love, Carrie and Margaret Leah Hennessey

OMGG I LOVE THE ENDING 😭😭💞