Evidence of the Affair

by Taylor Jenkins Reid

It is funny the crazy things our brains make up to save us from the truth.

My mother said when I married him that I was committing myself to a “bland life of boring.” To be honest, that is part of what I have always loved about him. He was a safe choice.

Mick Riva albums.

that man is everywhere

For curiosity’s sake, I’m almost happy when I find one. I always want more information.

I guess I find it pretty easy to look like nothing is happening when everything has changed.

It is as if I have lived with a hard shell all over my body and you have cracked it and it has all fallen off. I am fresh again.

I wish I hadn’t, but I know that I had to.

Do you ever feel like your life got away from you somehow? Lately, it feels like my whole life has a similar feeling to when you check the clock on a Saturday and realize it’s already half past four.

This just isn’t how it was all supposed to go.

Lying has just become so much easier than telling the truth. I don’t remember when things got so hard. But life has been a matter of keeping our heads above water for years now.

Sometimes I think the insecurity this brings up is the hardest part.

Often, I feel overwhelmed by this sinking feeling in my heart that I will never be enough.

who doesn't feel like this

I imagine that my husband looks at your wife and sees a real woman. And I am afraid that I will lose the life I have built to a woman who can give him what he wants.

You must know we could never be a one-time thing. We are once-in-a-lifetime paramours.

fuck off pig

That night three years ago, when I saw you from across the restaurant, I was struck with the feeling that I had never seen a woman so alive.

oh shit

I have never loved before. If this is what love is.

that's…

I’ve always been struck by the idea that you can’t be all that happy something has returned if it doesn’t go away in the first place.

Daisy Jones

She's perfect for the hurt

Carrie Allsop, you are never the woman no one will ask to dance. I will be here dancing with you for as long as we want to get groovy.

Delights can be hard to come by recently, so I truly cherish getting to laugh with you.

Sometimes I think mine might turn to stone any minute now, and yet every time I see you I soften, reminded of how you still choose kindness over anger at every step.

It seems as if you see me exactly as I wish to be seen. There is no greater gift than that.

You are the second half of my heart nowadays, Carrie Ann.

I think the plan should be just as you said. We should aim to take him for “all that he is worth.”

GO GIRL!

I simply said, “I’m leaving you.” And then I threw my napkin onto the table, took the keys out of his jacket pocket, and walked out. I made him walk home.

as he deserves

Early last September, I realized I was two months pregnant.

It brings me pride to tell you that I left that asshole.

so proud

You gave me hope and perspective and confidence. Right before you gave me my baby.

OH FUCK YES