Evidence of the Affair

by Taylor Jenkins Reid

It is funny the crazy things our brains make up to save us from the truth.

I guess I find it pretty easy to look like nothing is happening when everything has changed.

I can’t keep pretending I have friends in town or a doctor’s appointment an hour away.

why do women catch infatuation first?!

It is as if I have lived with a hard shell all over my body and you have cracked it and it has all fallen off. I am fresh again. I love you for that. And I needed you to know.

I am scared for the things we will say that we can’t take back.

I am not going to speak to him or anyone else about this at all until I understand exactly what I want to say.

me coded <3!

I am afraid of losing all that I have ever known.

I spend every moment I am alone asking myself what sort of future I want. Instead of thinking of what has happened, I think of what will make me happy one day, hopefully soon.

Do you ever feel like your life got away from you somehow? Lately, it feels like my whole life has a similar feeling to when you check the clock on a Saturday and realize it’s already half past four.

Lying has just become so much easier than telling the truth. I don’t remember when things got so hard. But life has been a matter of keeping our heads above water for years now.

It has made me forget how I used to see her.

That I am damaged and any man in his right mind would leave me.

Is it corny to say my heart feels like an eternal December with no April in sight?

“Delights can be hard to come by recently, so I truly cherish getting to laugh with you.”

And no matter what my husband thought of me, I was still important.